Monday, January 5, 2009

Unfair!!!

Yesterday my mom gave me a bad news when I'm back from teaching. She told me that my poh poh's hip was very pain. Doctor said might be broken bone or something. Had to go for X-ray screening. 


When the result out, it happen to be her nerves were swollen due to too many injections on her hand for dialysis. When I heard about it, my heart was broken and my tears about to drop. 



Why would such thing happened to a nice old lady like her? 3 years ago she suffered skin disease due to her kidney had some problem that cause her skin "menghakis". She cried in the middle of the night due to the pain she suffered. At that time, my grandpa still here and we thought we might gonna lose her. 



Fortunately, doctor advised us to send her to dialysis centre and let her go for dialysis treatment. Her kidney getting better while doing dialysis treatment. But when my grandma getting better, suddenly my grandpa's ill got worst. He suffered awhile for cancer. Not long later, he left us in March 2007.



And now,  my grandma suffered from another pain again. She's a nice old lady. Why You want to torture her like this? I can't bear to see her suffering like this. Although she did not pamper me like how she pamper my cousin. But she's the one who take care me when I was in primary school. 



When I was young in primary school, I used to stay at my grandma's house after school with my sister. Then my dad will pick us up after his work. That time I was a very naughty child. I fought my cousin, I bite them and did a lot naughty stuffs. 



Whenever my grandma saw us fighting, she will always at my cousin's side. She'll punish me instead of my cousin no matter who was in the wrong. That time, I always cursed her. I was very very very regret for cursing her because of this tiny little thing. I'm sorry and I don't mean to curse her at that time. Please don't take it serious to torture her now. 



It's really unfair for the God to treat her like this. 3 years ago she suffered from skin disease, now she suffered from nerves pain. How could You do this to an old lady like her??? 

Random thoughts for the year 2009

I'm getting lazy lately. Lazy to clean up my room and messed up with lots of old clothes that I can't fit now due to I've put on some weight. *sob sob* 



On New Year Eve, someone asked bout my new year's resolution. hmm... what's my new year resolution's for year 2009?? 


First of all would be my education that include my degree, my diploma in piano, and my korea language. I've told myself to get myself Diploma in Piano 4 years ago (which is after I passed my Grade 8 in 2005). After 4 years of delay, this year I must get a diploma in Piano.



I also wanna finish up Korea Advance 2 (at least) by this year. And of course, I need to do well for my degree final year. Although I did very badly in Year 2 but I must not let myself fail in any subjects. 




I also want to treat my family better as I've always neglected them all these years and I've been selfish for not caring them. I don't want to make them worry bout me for being immature (which what I've done in the past).  



I know you might read this, of course I will not forget bout you. I won't let you worry bout me as well. ^_^ 



Well, I'm a bit tired now due to the 1st of class today. I'm kinda exhausted here as I've been rushing here and there almost whole day. Gotta zzzz soon. Zzzzzz....